The work pants I bought a month ago and have barely worn are far too tight today.
I've been having troubles lately eating over 1000 calories and this is not helping.
I have to drive myself to the fair tomorrow and I'm freaking out already.
My anxiety has been pretty shitty in general lately, but my driving anxiety has been out of control.
On top of that, the road to the fair is a hard one for me.
I have to drive one the last road my cousin was on. I have to drive right by the crash site. Four years and the hurt of losing him is still so fresh.
I don't know how I'm going to do it, aside from chain smoking my way there and probably stopping to puke from panic and memories.
This anxiety is ruining my life.
Baby, I wish I could heal you, take this pain away.
ReplyDeleteI love you so much and I also know what incredibly power and strength you posses.
Always here.
Always <3