I'm sick of sitting at work trying to figure out how I can kill myself between now and the next workday.
I'm sick of this anxiety keeping me here.
I'm sick of the anxiety keeping me in town because I can't fucking drive anywhere.
I'm sick of constantly worrying about every little fucking thing.

I'm looking up mental health/counseling places covered by my insurance.
This will be the first time I've done this in 8 years.
I'm fucking terrified.